Paradisium

Mhm hm..

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 20:14:33 GMT

See me as you see me
Know me as you know me
But I am always more than this
I am always above the tide
I am never raising the white flag
Call me as you call me
Believe me as you believe me
But I am always crouching low
I am always pulling
The knives from my back
I am never raising the white flag.
Destroy me as you would try to
Disect me as you would try to
But I am always singing
I'm always rewriting my tune
Growing and changing into something more
I am never raising my white flag.

~:~Malissa~:~

For but not to Sue.

Poem

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 22:04:40 GMT

A little pointless Poem I wrote.

If not me

You tell me I repeat myself too much.
And I tell you it's because you aren't listening.
That cigarette dangling from your lips will only last you so long.
And then what will satiate your need?
It's not always what it's cracked up to be.
This thing we call living.
These things we call dreams.
Lines get too faded.
Borders blend with borders.
And I still stare at you, wondering what you were meant to be.
Do you regret it all now?
Would you take it back if you could?
Did you realize your time was passing by you so quickly?
How many times did you chastise me for being who I wanted to be?
For doing what I wanted to do?
And now you envy me.
And now you wish you could be.
That you could have been.
I will never pretend to know anything about the things I reap.
The things I sow.
There are a million worlds between what I want and what I have.
But I am not unhappy.
I am not regret.
I learn from you, like I learn from so many others.
From the things they have been through.
From the things they didn't get to.
And I don't understand how you can just be your love for him.
I don't understand how you can just be a relationship.
A part of something knowing you are nothing on your own.
I know you want me to be this thing.
This definition you see fit.
But that isn't how I work.
That isn't how I breath.
I am no one if not me.

~:~Malissa~:~

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 21:10:54 GMT

"Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."

- Ludwig van Beethoven